Category: English

2 more days

What is in my head? Why am I keeping struggling to do this? To write about training, to study, to analyze, to invest my precious free time and a part of my money trying to develop my knowledge about corporate training?

For one an year I am working nonstop to do this. I am really tired and I need a break, but I can’t take it. Business meetings are waiting for me at home, presentation to be finished, brands to be released. Why? All I need is her. She can help me sleep for days. Soon, 2 more days and I’ll start to rest.

Please release me.

Sailor 3

I am here, on my floating island for 4 weeks. The isolation, routine and last events in my life gave me a strange feeling of insecurity, and a terrible vision about the future. I feel like a cast away, drifting between events I can’t control. My life is managed by other people objectives.

I have a lot of tasks to do, and because I am always far away from home, I can’t be my self. I am force to fight for causes I don’t believe in and am I am too afraid to press the ‘Emergency Stop Button’. I try to keep my mind occupied with different things that make me feel special and smart. I am in a huge waiting room, looking for an escape from this situation, waiting to fight again for me. I hope I won’t wait too long, long enough to get tired and to forget that I want to fight.

The good thing in this is that after a long day, I crash fast. I love my bed, whatever this will be. The problem is I have to sleep on my right side, because my left side give me nightmares. The clock is ringing always too early.

A new day starts with a shower, a coffee and the belief that I can do this. I can sell my soul. Everything starts somehow, somewhere.

But then I remember that everything that has a beginning has also an end. I am waiting for that end. I am waiting to be myself again.

My Memories

Time fly when you are busy. I had a vacation a month ago. I arrived home on 25 of June, after 2.5 month. I had a vacation together with my girlfriend. We had nights for us and days to solves problems, see our families and pay bills.

After that, I went to Diayarbakir, Turkey, close to the border with Syria. This supposed to be a vacation, but it transformed into a race to finish personal projects. I spent most of the time writing team building articles and making a research about training in Romania.

I was feeling Turkey eating the local food; I was hearing Turkey by listening the prayers from the minarets and the music from the weddings in the night. Every day was at list one wedding in that area.

The time was short again and I had to prepare again for the trip in US. Back home for 2 days, I had time just to pay another bills and see 2 team building locations. I flied to New Orleans, the final destination before I’ve got on the vessel I am working now.

Here I’ve new faces, the same life, and the same schedule. I have 5 more weeks to stay here.

Now, near the place I was in Turkey there is a war: Israel – Beirut. In the sky, the sound of fighting planes covers the sound of prayers and weddings. On the streets there is a lot of police. Life goes on different.

I’ll try keeping my memories in a world where a place can disappear in a second.

What book to buy?

‘Coca Cola’, ‘Pizza’ and ‘Vodka’ – the best 3 well known words in the world. I think it is not so bad, because it is about food and drink.

After this a new word is ‘Windows’, everybody is using and cursing this operating system. Doesn’t matter now, Bill Gates is no more in Microsoft.  

What I don’t understand is how all the children in the word are reading the same books now – Harry Potter, people that like mysteries are reading Da Vinci Code, and literature lovers are reading Paulo Coelho. All over the world, in all the languages, you can find these books. It’s easy now to take home a young lady that likes to think she is smart: you just say “I’ve loved the ‘Manual of the Warrior of Light’ (one of Coelho’s book) and the lady will become available.

The synchronization is perfect, the marketing impeccable and the profit huge. Probably somebody knows now what everybody will read in 2 years. All the publisher has to do is promote a book, and every body will buy it.

When everybody will have the same culture, the world will become a boring a poor place. The worst thing is that we are actually paying to have a washed common brain.

Well, my choice from now on will be not to read what everybody does. I’ll feel different, special. I’ll make my own choice. I won’t allow someone else to decide for me.